The Problem I Encounter with Text Influenced by Religion

When I come across, in the breadth of various readings I take up, the topic of christianity, in a theological term, I am reminded of the glaring ignorance in which I encounter it. In historically important works, such as the works of Luther, or my current readings of Kierkegaard, I feel a deep sense of disconnection. The disconnection though, is not for what might seem the most obvious reason, my religious atheism; though that is a small point, it is one I’ve learned to navigate with proficiance at this point. The problem though is my utter lack, in my atheism, of a disconnection from the text.
As I have been exposed to athiest thinkers as well as an actively catholic grandmother and a decade living in the American ‘Bible Belt’, attending church regularly for a couple of years near the end of my teens, exposure on various levels to the ideas of christianity has never been something that I haven’t experienced. My concern is a lack of connection specifically with the book itself.
The words of the book though, not enscribed with another persons meaning, starts to concern me more and more as I try to place history and historical thought into more contextual terms. Though a great portion of the previous epochs population had not the education to read the Bible themselves, they were deeply impacted by those that took the word deathly serious.
When an atheist, or any man that reads important, historical age moving work in past millenias, to read St Augustines City of God, or the writings by Luther of the protestant reformation, the level of arrogance required to think one can know these works without knowing the word is off the charts. Try as you might, and though you may hold, which often us without religion are quick to dismiss, heald beliefs in morality heavily influenced by the specter of christianity (at least in America), these works are written by men more religious than most in this age can imagine. That is not to say that one can not understand on a human level, some of what I would consider the ‘universal’ ideas of these works, it is to say though that the greatest context to these works is missing from you.
Ive been thinking of this more and more recently, for perhaps the last ~3 years, as I’ve increased my reading sharply. I found myself deeply unintetested in my childhood, then turned off during my teenage years, from a combination of teenage angsty athiesm and a Bible Belt actively hostile against my rebellious spirit that made it nearly impossible for the young me to imagine anything less interesting than opening a Bible.
In my adult age, I have not really sought out any reading that may require religious context. I have, truly, kind of stumbled upon historical philisophical works, many of which would be framed better with a rudementary understanding of the locations of the biblical books and the understanding of the events less known to us unbelievers. As a non-religious person in this country, all you know is the arc, the apple tree and the snake, and the rapture.
I may have to plan to finally crack open my first truly religious text by the time I’m 30, if this trend of reading continues.

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