Living free

There is much to wonder about the ways in which we may pan out. Many times we do not even begin to be aware of where to begin. There is trouble. A realization that, perhaps, our external impressions may be just that, that we are as small as we sometimes believe, and that the world is not made for us, but by us. These thoughts lead logically to the worrying thought, if one bothers to sift through thoughts of boundless directions of possibilities presented to us in our age – that at the end of the day, we are individual, and have to take on our lives ourselves.
   The idea may seem simple at first, perhaps even obvious, but if one going into the idea the existential will follow. We can only live our own life. The permutation of impressions given to us by the external world are our own. Try as we might to be anything else, take on a role, be the savior of a different age, we are simply ourselves. Therefore, as much as we hope and wish and want to be them, we will never be. The goal is infeasible, and to live your life as an actor, playing the roll of one the real deal, but truly just acting, is no way to be in the world, or to yourself.
    The trouble is the complexity of the mental/physical world in which we all inhabit. It’s not just daunting, its mind melting if you spend too long staring into the sun of myriad possibilities. You can not become everything. Yet, if one allows it to be, the possibility to explore all of those possibilities can be who you are, in the now, as yourself.
    To realize you may be taking a completely new journey of the world, forging the path oneself, can be as rewarding as it is frightening. To realize that, though you cannot live the life of someone else, no-one can live yours either, gives some flavor to ones interpretation of what this whole ‘life thing’ means. The friends you have, the love, the interpersonal relationships shared with the people who know you are unique. The time you share with others is a personal and fleeting experience. No-one can take that from you, and no-one can become you.
    To talk of possibilities, is a frightening thing, because it is pretty open. You can move to a different city tomorrow and start a new life, there is always the choice with small means. If one does not feel as though they can make drastic changes, I would be curious to ask: “what’s holding you back?” I would suspect that the reason is not the thing truly not tying you to any situation, but that it is your understanding of that situation and awareness or lack thereof of the vast options, not all, or even most, auspicious, but options nonetheless. Not to say that there arent truly restrictions on some in certain areas/situations, but it is to say that one posseses more freedom of choice, individuality, and uniqueness then is often considered

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